Water Fast: Day 3
This is my real-time documentation of our 2024 four-day water fast.
Day 3.
TW: Eating Disorder
6:30am
I had a dream I was besties with a top-floor CEO, and her assistant continuously brought us donuts, fruits, snacks, and more from businesses she worked with. I tried a bite of candy and immediately remembered I was supposed to be fasting, so I spit it out, rubbed the remains from my tongue, and cried because I thought I'd betrayed my commitment. Thankfully, I woke up in a wild state of hunger not too long after which reminded me just how committed I am. As you may have noticed from the past two days, I am not normally a morning girly, but I haven't been able to sleep for, like, the last hour. So, why not just go ahead and get up, right? Except that the sooner I get up, the longer I have to be conscious of the fact that I'm not eating anything for another ~36 hours. I am very, very aware of that. Thankfully I have the cutest freaking animals ever to remind me I have so many bigger and better gifts than food. My body is now in ketosis -- so bring on the mental clarity and energy! I can say I do feel better than when I laid my head down last night, nauseous, my head throbbing, and wondering if I truly could make it to Day 4. Today, I am starting with devouring some of God's Word, doing dishes that have somehow been dirty since Day 0, coworking with one of my dearest friends, and working out. I'm hoping it will move quickly and tomorrow will be here before I know it...although I also don't want to wish my life away. What a funny tightrope I'm on.
10:55am
I have arrived at my bestie gals house to get some writing knocked out while she works on her schoolwork. We have a weekly ritual of bringing one another coffee before we work, and mannnnn did it suck not also ordering myself a coffee when picking hers up. Anywho, I'm going to use this time to submit an email to a coach and then work on writing chapter 2 of my new book, Making Messy Magic (click here to know when it releases later this year!) My energy has definitely increased from yesterday, and I don't feel as mentally fatigued as last night, so I love that for me! Because I didn't drink (anywhere near) enough water yesterday, I chugged 32oz this morning...and yep, I still don't love water.
5:25pm
The sky is incredibly beautiful tonight. It feels like God is rewarding me for being so close to the finish line. A light, cerulean blue is bleeding into a deep purple undertone with bright pink and flaming orange highlights. It looks like a bright pastel painting with silhouettes of black trees all around. I completed Making Messy Magic chapter 3, worked out, came home, played with Tuck, and did the dishes that have been neglected in the sink since this weekend. While my energy was there, I could tell my strength was not at its peak in the gym today. My coach has me doing 80% of my standard weight while fasting...and man, even that freaking felt hard today.
I am hungry, but I am at peace with not eating. In just over 24 hours, I'll be breaking this fast with a small smoothie and handful of (most likely) almonds, and while 5% of me feels like it can't come soon enough, the remaining 95% knows we have this in the bag, baby.
During times of immense hunger, I've been praying for it to subside and for clarity over various parts of my life. On my drive home today, I heard God say, "You're doing so well. Can't you see that? Sure, everyone has room for growth, and you are growing. That's all We ask," and I cried. Oh, what a blessing it is to be seen by God.
7:22pm
Mr. J and I are getting ready to pray together, play Five Crowns (which is a MUST if you like card games), and finish up season one of Loudermilk. A good way to end a good day. I must say, ‘dinner’ hunger hasn’t hit me. I think I’m past my body feeling like it’s missing out on its scheduled feedings (t h a n k f u l l y). 24 hours to go. I’ll catch ya on the flip side.
Jess
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